Why The F**K Do I Bother?

Life is such a pain in the ass sometimes. My mother is 'ill' because she was put under sedation (that she asked for) to have a tooth pulled. A's idea of hard work is going to badminton and never having to look after himself. E's idea of hard work is going to the O2 shop that he works in and then coming home to play C.O.D until he goes to bed. I have not only been running around all day at Guy's Dental Hospital to help out my mother, but I was stuck in the waiting room finishing off my coursework because everyone told me I couldn't leave until I took my mother with me. So screw me going to Starbucks for two hours and maybe having a hot chocolate while I waited. I was sat in a miserable, stuffy waiting room, with no drink and no idea where to get one without leaving the waiting room, and I was sat finishing coursework. I couldn't even listen to any music because my Ipod wasn't charged so I didn't even have any headphones. Great right? Now I'm at home, my brothers demand I be the one to sort out the dinner because their lives are SOOOOOOO much harder than mine and they need the extra time to relax. I don't need that because I'm fat and all I do is my University coursework. That's not important. Nothing I do is important because their lives are so much more important and their events are so much more important than any of mine could be.

So to be blunt, I've had a bad day and nobody really gives a shot, so I wonder why I even bother sometimes. I spend all my time working hard, helping out my relatives and what do I get for it? I get shat on and no one actually gives a damn about me. Absolutely fantastic.

Army of The Underground.

This morning I had to will myself out of bed. In fact it took me ten minutes just to make my arm move, and my hand pull back the covers. I found that I was actually telling my legs to move. Eventually I managed to be half in and half out of bed. My mother found this experience funny. Why? I don't know. Maybe it was because I was talking to my unresponsive limbs.

I was travelling on the Tube with my mother at about...... 8 o clock this morning. Travelling on the Tube is not an unusual occurance for me, especially at 8 in the morning. Usually it's packed (if you're a Londoner and you travel by Tube in the mornings or evenings you surely know what I'm talking about) Today was no different. It was so packed that we had to fight to get on the train, my mother and I that is.

However, today as I was travelling with my mother, I didn't have my headphones in my ears, so I could actually hear everything going on around me. So as we got off at Kings Cross St Pancras tube station to get on the Northern line, we were walking around in a giant circle (which is how the station is set out now. The floor plan looks like a giant tube sign) I noticed that every single person seemed to be wearing hard soled or high heeled shoes. So it sounded like a giant army marching through the station. I never actually realised how it sounded before because I'm always listening to my I-pod. But to me it really sounded like an army marching through the station.

Are there any thoughts on that? Anyone ever felt that way on the Tube? Or anywhere else for that matter? Anyone else have trouble making themselves move out of bed? Trust me it wouldn't surprise me.

Quote for the day: "If I can't see it, it's not there."

Hn...

Who can decipher what "Hn" means?

Hn is the universal Anime/Manga language of Emos.

Shinji from Evangelion, Sasuke from Naruto, Hiei from Yu Yu Hakusho, Van from Visions of Escaflowne, Vegeta (and possibly Picollo) from Dragonball Z and many more.

However it's impossible to decipher. Strangely enough, "Hn" languange is used in my household on a regular basis, and my brothers and I seem to understand each other just fine.

Although when it comes to muffle language only me and E can understand each other. I can be brushing my teeth, eating my food, or stuck under a duvet, (and E vice versa) and we can still understand each other through the muffles. Cool init?

Question. Does anyone have that kind of relationship with someone? Family member? Friend? Animal? Teacher? Somebody?

Bragging?

Have any of you ever felt that you're not really appreciated at home? That no one gives you any credit and everyone gets it except for you? Well I feel the same way sometimes. I'm working really hard at University, but sometimes I wonder if my mother really appreciates how much trouble I'm actually going through to make sure I pass. Uni is by no means easy. In fact it gets harder every year (any Uni studetns will totally agree with me) Especially the work load. The amoun I have to read (and the essays I have to write) Increase every year. It's very frustrating and when you have to read books on the train journeys because you don't actually have spare time to do it at home, you know you're running out of hours in the day.

Anyway, so yeah I feel quite unappreciated. My family takes whatever good things I do for granted. At least that is what I thought. But then my mother came home from the Casino. (occupational hazard of being Greek is that most of them LOVE the Casino) and she told me she met my Uncle and his friends there. Not a strange occurance. But what was strange was when she speaking to when of them (that she hasn't seen in about..... three years) he asked how I was doing at University. The only way he could've known is if my Uncle told him. So at least one person brags about me when I'm not there.

Question of the day. Why doesn't anyone praise me when I can hear it?

Superman VS Goku.

Okay, this may seem the most ridiculous post, but I couldn't help thinking about it after I watched my younger brothers (who shall be known as E and A on here because if I mentioned their names, they'd kill me) have a really stupid discussion.E thinks of himself as Superman,A thinks of himself as Goku,The reason for this?Because they believe that only Goku and Superman can be each other's rivals, and they want to be eternal rivals for eternity. Does it make sense? It depends on if you're a comic book and Anime(or Manga or both) fan or not. I personally am an Anime(& Manga) fan, but not a comic book fan. So I sorta understand their weird logic. However, what I don't get is why the hell they want to be epic rivals to each other. However, here is the question of the day.Who would win in a fight? Goku or Superman?